Friday, March 26, 2010
To my friend, The Clinic
Dear CF Clinic,
It makes me very happy to say that we'll be seeing each other again soon! Though it's not even been a full three months since our last visit, I've missed you terribly. That's strange to say, since until very recently I had always dreaded our visits. For a long time I was under the delusion that you were unnecessary; nothing more than an inconvenience in my life. Perhaps I wouldn't be in the position I'm in now if I'd paid more attention to you before; if I had been willing to visit you more often. But, being human, we all make mistakes. Although it's regrettable that such drastic measures (a DREADFUL hospitalization plus an ENORMOUS decline in lung function) were necessary to get me to this place, I can now promise you that I'll never neglect you (or myself, for that matter) as I have in the past.
You have become a dear friend of mine...along with TOBI, Pulmozyme, Exercise, and various members of the PEP family, just to name a few. By the way, if you happen to run into Exercise, please tell him I'm sorry I've stood him up two mornings in a row now. I fully intended on meeting with him, but my child had other plans that demanded my full attention. To make up for it, however, I've planned a pretty intense session for tonight.
Our last goodbye was a little daunting for me. I was happy to have had your support and was unsure exactly when I'd have the chance to see you again. Just as our relationship was becoming strong, some issues arose that threatened to drive a wedge between us (wretched insurance!). But, I'm happy to say that, for the time being, those issues have been resolved. I must admit, I don't look forward to the three hour drive or the fact that I'll most likely have to face the trip alone this time. But, I promise I will be there with a smile on my face.
Since we last saw each other, I've been doing some things that I think you'll be quite pleased about. I've continued doing my treatments regularly, I've implemented some natural health remedies that I'm pretty sure are doing wonderful things, and as far as Exercise... I may have been a bit misleading when I mentioned before that we've become "friends". The truth is that we've entered into a love affair and have been courting quite seriously for a few weeks now.
With all the effort I've been making, I'm hoping that you'll be WOWED by my PFT scores! I have three weeks before our reunion, in which I'll continue working hard to be the best I can be when I see you.
Your pulmonarily challenged friend,