Before you were born I used to lay awake at night trying to imagine what you would look like. Would you have my eyes? Would you have your dad's nose? When you were finally born you were nothing like I imagined--you were so much more! Before seeing you, it was impossible for my mind to conceive the idea that anyone could be SO BEAUTIFUL! My entire life I've heard parents say that they have the cutest kids in the world. There were times that I wasn't sure whether or not they honestly believed it or if they felt somehow obligated to say it. Now that I'm a parent myself I realize that anytime a parent has ever uttered those words they were said with the purest honesty. Morgan, I sincerely believe that you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen.
These past few days have been the hardest days of my life--physically and emotionally. I've been very sick and have had to stay in the hospital far away from you and daddy. My heart aches for you, Morgan. I can't make it through a single minute of my day without missing you--pining for you. I'm no longer whole without you. Your plump little toes, your delicate fingers, your beautiful blue eyes... There isn't a single thing about you that I don't miss. Grandma is taking care of you while I'm away and more than once I've called her in tears. During those phone calls I can hear you crying or cooing in the background and it eases my soul just a little. Then I imagine you laying on your blanket screeching, waiting for me to come back to you...
Morgan, sometimes it may take longer than others, but I will ALWAYS come back to you.